A Realization...Bitter...Sweet

Silence crept like darkness and I longed for rays,

hours felt like weeks and seconds like days,

music, movies and crowd gave me no meaning,

I missed the high too,that I used get from boozing.

Too much uncertainty, numbness were in store,

life told me, "you are not living anymore."

Loneliness was haunting,felt like committing a crime,

distance, felt proportional to time.

Sleep was nowhere to be found,

Insomnia ate me like a hound.

Rain drops touched me like a sharp sword,

it was long  since I saw you,was desperate for a word.

But then,

for the first time in life,the separation made a meaning,

with you I had a home,in our world of feelings.

Distance, felt proportional to love,

as you became my heartthrob.

For the first time in life, a realization felt arousing,

a future so beautiful, not ME...not YOU, just US in everything,

For the first time in life, prayers were fruitful,

for the price of separation,it was worth it to love you like a fool.

For the first time in life, it felt like it was just a beginning,

with your sheer presence,you gave my life a true meaning,

For the first time in life, life was worth living for,

I was so thankful to life, it kept you for me in store.